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1 poem: Have You Ever
Have you ever cut yourself to feel?
Taken that blade and slice your skin
Saw the blood pool and become alive
Have you ever counted your breaths?
To make sure you're still breathing
And wishing every one was your last
Have you ever felt so numb you can't feel?
Broken you own heart and took the blame
Because no one else can understand
Have you ever wished you were dead?
Just for the dream to turn into a nightmare
To breath again and feel emotions again
Have you ever wanted walked in the rain?
To feel the rain missing with your tears
And not know where your tears were anymore
Have you ever felt yourself fall?
Fall so hard you crashed into the floor
And just let yourself bruise and bleed
Have you ever felt that consuming pain?
A strong pain you've never felt before
That made you wish for death as a release
Taken that blade and slice your skin
Saw the blood pool and become alive
Have you ever counted your breaths?
To make sure you're still breathing
And wishing every one was your last
Have you ever felt so numb you can't feel?
Broken you own heart and took the blame
Because no one else can understand
Have you ever wished you were dead?
Just for the dream to turn into a nightmare
To breath again and feel emotions again
Have you ever wanted walked in the rain?
To feel the rain missing with your tears
And not know where your tears were anymore
Have you ever felt yourself fall?
Fall so hard you crashed into the floor
And just let yourself bruise and bleed
Have you ever felt that consuming pain?
A strong pain you've never felt before
That made you wish for death as a release
#1 Minion reporting for duty!
Your poem is quite startling.. very evokative and rather familiar, to me at least.
As for your other entry, on another journal - I don't think you're reverting back. I just think you're going through a bleh stage... which everyone does.. some just last longer than others. I think maybe because you've come so far, and constantly in postive flux -- well, you're a bright shiny star, so any stagnancy or plateau you hit might make you feel like you're going backward?
Of course, I'm not you thus cannot know really. But to me, you don't seem to be going backwards.. you seem a little ... stuck ... but not going in reverse.
And off topic, what email address do you use for msn? The one I have added says you're offline..
Re: #1 Minion reporting for duty!
I deleted that entry, by the way, disabled comments and all. Kudos for you for seeing it though. ;)
Thank you. Perhaps you are right. Perhaps I'm not really reverting, just feeling stagnant so it makes me feel as though I am going backwards. Kind of like when you're in a car and your business a bus and it starts moving so even though you are staying still, it feels like you are going in reverse.